Essay
From Quake to StarCraft 2: The Female Avatar or Lack Thereof
by Marie Hix | 12:03 pm, May 4th
There’s a nailgun on the screen, and below it, the grimacing, pixelated face of my marine. To my left, the sound of some monster’s warning moan grabs my attention, so I slide over to the ammo along the wall, and wait for him to approach. It’s dark in my room; my eyes have dilated to allow every bit of the yellow light from my monitor in. I flex my hand on the keys. It’s now or never.
I’m fourteen years old, in my room, playing Quake.
Like many young nerds, I’ve promised myself that this is the last level I’ll play tonight. But of course it won’t be. The game is just getting good, and despite the horrendous lag, I’m not doing too bad. I had played several computer games before this one—Wolfenstein, Doom—but Quake is the one that stands out in my mind the most. This is probably because it was the first one I ever played online with anybody else. And because of that, it was the first game where I realized that the avatar did not actually represent me.
Oh, I’m not suggesting that anybody who plays a First-Person Shooter actually looks like the character they play. But as the majority of my fellow players were, well, fellows, they were a bit closer to the male character than I would ever be. Sure, with a bit of clever tweaking, it was easy enough to replace the default skin with any texture desired, though the underlying shape would remain the same. Most of the available female-ish skins had such creative and elegant names as Bad Babe, Dominatrix, CrackWhore, and one memorable set that looked like the Spice Girls. (Sort of.) When wrapped over the bulky form of the marine, they looked more like men in drag than women.
It shouldn’t have been important, but it was, just a little. As an insecure noob, in the gender minority, there was a minor bristling of annoyance that my gender was such an afterthought. It wasn’t until the release of Quake 2 that a player could choose a male or female player for their adventures. This, of course, opened the doorway to the famous “There are no girls on the internet” idiom, and the idea that if you played a girl model, you must really be a guy. Paradoxically, many female players, when given the option, chose male avatars to avoid the harassment and ‘TITS OR GTFO’ spamming they’d encounter. Thankfully, I never saw much of this, but it was there. (And still is, to which any female WoW player can attest, especially if they play a Night Elf or Blood Elf. Curiously, female Orcs and Tauren seem to be immune to this.)
The other night, I was installing a long-awaited copy of Starcraft 2 on my machine—a thoughtful pre-push present from my equally-nerdy husband, who insisted that I might need something to do when the kid gets here and I’m nursing late at night. Love him. I was going through the audio and video settings when I suddenly realized that I couldn’t find the spot to change my avatar from the default goateed guy.
For a brief moment, I had a flashback to those early Quake days: What if I was always going to be this guy with the earphones and the goatee? Did it matter? Not really. But surely, the company that brought me the the Assassin from Diablo 2: LOD back in the day wouldn’t take a step backwards with this new piece of shiny, would they?
Ah, no, there it was. Good. Back to the game.
The issue of gender in video games is as old as video games themselves. Generally speaking, approximately 40% of US video game players are female, but that’s across the board; for specific genres, such as FPS, RTS, or MMORPG, the ratio is much lower. While it might be easy to assume that ‘girls just don’t play games,’ it’s not entirely accurate. We do. It’s just that games in these genres are predominately designed by men, for men, with male perspectives and attitudes; both men and women characters typically reflect the physical and behavioral archetypes that benefit the males, but typically end up annoying us girls.
In a way, it’s Marketing 101: When you’re creating a product, you take audience into account; if your audience is primarily male, then you skew to that audience. I’m not here to debate any of the myriad complex issues brought up in recent games about the objectification of women and the continued stereotypes, feel free to draw your own conclusions on that front. But speaking in vague generalities, and in the eyes of so many software companies, men like to shoot things, and women like to talk it out. So why make Female an option to begin with? There are no girls on the internet!!
So, ladies, am I alone here? Any other girl gamers who’ve dealt with Avatarus Interruptus? How do you feel about the character you play either matching or not matching your gender?
Marie Hix usually blogs at Two Nerds and a Baby.
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